​​​​Adnan's Endoplasmic Reticulum

The reason for an individual's existence is a very subjective question. This question takes in everything single aspect of a person not just internally, but their external environment has just as enough influence on it too. In the case of life, I am not sure of what the purpose of my existence is. I do not have enough experience in life to tell you that yet. The South Asian society I have grown up in tends to predetermine for me, which I do not like from the exposure to a more liberal society of the west. My purpose in life and my own being, has always been to fight with these two worlds, conservative and liberal, and make them both work for me.

I was born to a Bangladeshi-muslim family. I grew up into a religion that I did not choose to believe in. I am not implying that it is bad, but I feel that I am never truly muslim. I feel as though when you are born into a society which includes a religion you never can be one with your creator, you never made the choice from your heart to be his follower, I am muslim just because I was born into it. As I get older I am getting more religious and finding things in the society of the religion that shades the true meaning of my fate. I also find things that I do not agree with in my religion, but I never can discuss my thoughts with other muslims because I would be working against god, because the societies practicing islam are too conservative.

Liberalism appeals to me greatly, my parents are both people of science but they have very polar opposite views. My father is a man of science who still follows his fate but lives with scientific reason, the perfect balance My mother on the other hand weighs superstition and religion higher than any science, even with her education. I have conflicts within conflicts. I have always fought at home regarding my points of view and nothing ends very well, but I have become stronger at justifying my views with better reasoning. All these events are unfortunate that I have parents who will never understand me because of their backgrounds but it makes me strong, the double edged sword of my life.

Through recent findings I have found that monotony is always bad, equality in a society leads to numbness. Nature acts as a sinusoidal wave, the seasons, your breathing, and most importantly life. There are instances of submission and contraction(inhaling, winter, sadness), then sprouting and growth (exhaling, summer, happiness). Everything biological seems correlated with each other, we humans today in our higher being have forgotten that we are just mere organisms with the 8.7 million other species on earth. We are in the same darwinian mess as every other species is, we cannot change our biology even if we can change the aspects that make us uniquely human. We have to learn to live in symbiosis and balancing the good, and the bad.

These days people are over ally fixated on finding what drives them instead of actually pursuing something. They tend to limbo around and not take risks to avoid failure and later just pursue something that gives them monetary value in life. Materialism is what we are all seeking no matter how much we deny it, we are all affluent creatures, especially us in the first world. My purpose is to live with nature just as any successful creature has, my purpose is to pursue risks, my purpose is to fight, my purpose is to live in balance. That means I must live with the same experiences of sadness and happiness and become the strongest me every natural sinusoidal cycle..